Monday, February 20, 2017

Just but the beginning of the journey...

They look at me as though I am dirt
Smelly and rotten
Like I am from the cabbage garbage dump
They call me names
Tag my black tough pony tails
Poke my skin with sticks and stones
Just to see if I can bleed
Just to see if they can wash my skin clean
I bet they would soak me in bleach
To see if that would work on me
Yet my pony tails and skin
Hold the tales of my ancestry

White little eyes
At the corner of the class
Foreign in the environment she is in
Made to feel like a housefly in a bowl of soup
Disgusting and unwanted
She stares brave
She stands bare
Not hiding from the onlookers
Her fellow classmates
Examining her like an extinct animal
As though they are at a zoo
Taking photos 
Pointing fingers 
Fright in their eyes
But she is a small little girl 
She can't bite 
She is just black

Mother wasn't for the idea
Daddy proclaimed, 
"She is my strong little girl.
She will do fine in her new school. 
She will represent our race well. 
She is as worthy to study in that university
As any other person
Pink, red, black or white."

Mother let go
Tears she held close 
But careful not to let any drop drop
From her big white eyes 
As she saw the same eyes stare at her
From the body of her grown little girl 
She had to be strong
Not just for her
But for every other child as her own
Black and unwanted 
Condemned and ridiculed
Deemed illiterate and backward
Not worthy of education 
Just slavery

Friday, January 13, 2017

The Life in Words

Don't blame me for my words
that flow out my mouth
through the path of my soul to my heart
my every nerve
Not forgetting my mind
For being involved sometimes

Don't blame me for my words
That cut across your heart
That make you shed a tear or two
Or causes you to rethink your life
For What's my purpose of writing?
If it doesn't move you?
Make you think twice?
Touch your soul?
Strike your every being?
Dis-harden your heart?
Motivate you in the process?
To move you to do something about injustice?
To make you think twice about judging, discrimination...? - the list is endless
To touch your soul with my bitter sweet words?
To strike your every being so as to attain a new way of thinking, feeling and treating others?
That's positive and peaceful?
To dis-harden your heart to accept love, to show love, to share love, to be human?

Don't blame me for my words 
I don't have control over them
They have a mind of their own
They have a flow of their own
I just follow
Where they lead me
I just follow
For I am a vessel
I just follow
For I am a medium
I just follow
Because it may be my purpose

Monday, January 9, 2017

Break the Silence

Today they all came knocking at my door
I refused to open up
So they brought down the door
All my walls came crashing down 
Marble and cement 
Dust and rocks
Bent metals
Broken windows
Seeking to destroy the foundation 
Only time will tell if she stands on firm ground. 

He listens to the rhyme of his breathing 
Because he no longer trusts the rhythm of his heart beat
His mind unravels day by day
His body feels every pain
At the edge of the building he stands
Weighing what choice to make
One push
he falls
No push
he jumps
It's evident
He gave up a long time ago. 

They were stars
That didn't glow in the dark
Obscured by their own insecurities,
Illusions, delusions, hallucinations
Lost in their own reality
Missing a big chunk of themselves
Yanked out?
Spat out?
Trashed?
Crashed? 
Self hate and depression
SHOUT!
SPEAK OUT!
GET HELP!
Before it is too late

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

The Uncertainty of Tomorrow

Tomorrow
Isn't the past

Tomorrow
Isn't the present

Tomorrow
Is rather the future

Uncertain
Blind
And a bargain

The uncertainty of tomorrow
Causes anxiety and worry 

That we are blind to the events and existence of tomorrow
Causes panic and unrest

Tomorrow as a bargain
Is dreaded by most
A bid of possibilities and impossibilities
For Tomorrow
May never come
For Tomorrow
May be your last
A Tomorrow
Filled with procrastinations

Tomorrow
A falsification that we are immortal?
That we still have time?
To correct our wrongs?
To be better individuals?
To accomplish our goals?
To procrastinate some more?

The impermanence of Today
Bears the gift of Tomorrow
The impermanence of Today
Makes us value every second we get
The impermanence of Today
Today becomes Tomorrow
The impermanence of Tomorrow
The Time Cycle of Life

A Tomorrow filled with
Hope
Dreams
Visions
Positivity

That it is Rainy Today
Doesn't mean it won't be Sunny Tomorrow
Tomorrow 
A chance that may carry greatness with it
How you shape your Today
Shall help shape your Tomorrow

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Why do you live for today?



Today may end
To give way to Tomorrow
Resulting to the existence of the past
A past we call Yesterday

We cry at the end of Today
But we should smile
For it offers us a new opportunity
A Future to be better than we were Today
A Past we can look back to to correct our mistakes
A Current to live like there is no tomorrow
A Current to fulfill our dreams
A Current to attain our life goals
A Current to do our best
To give our all
In all we do
But be happy
For the blessing of a new day

An existence we paid no price for
Gifts and talents we need to utilize
Aid we need to offer
Love we need to share
Gratitude we need to show
Mistakes we need to make
To learn and gain strength 
To never give up
Or feel lowly of ourselves
For the lives we live are not for our sake
But for His sake
The success we gain is not ours
But His
We live for our families
We live for our future generation
We secure better opportunities for those in our lives or yet to come
For it is more fulfilling
To live your today for others.

Friday, September 16, 2016

Time the Beauty of an Impermanent World

The beauty of an impermanent world
We get to treasure every minute
Every moment
To Love without fear
To Smile and Laugh
To live like a child with no worries
For there maybe no tomorrow to love
For there maybe no tomorrow to smile
For there maybe no tomorrow to live like a child

The beauty of an impermanent world
Our worries, pain and suffering
Are not eternal
They will soon fade away
Joy and happiness will soon bloom
It may not be here
But in the next world
So make your today worth it
To smile eternally

The beauty of an impermanent world
Today I live
Tomorrow death might come for me
I got to see the sun rise and set today
I accomplished my purpose in life
I lived my life to the fullest
I used my potential to my maximum
I shall die empty

The beauty of an impermanent world
I shall pave way for a better generation
Stories will exist
Stories will be told
Of the life I lived
Of the deeds I did
Question is
Will my great grandchildren smile at the tale?
Learn from the tale?
Wish I was alive for them to hug me goodbye?
Will I even end up as a story?
Or my death will be final?
My children too ashamed of the life I lived?
A bad example to my great grandchildren?
My death
An erase of my existence?
My death
My awakening to greatness?

The beauty of an impermanent world
All that is temporary
Is permanent
Permanent as memories
Memories we can hold on to
Meditation key
Key to relive those fragments
But only in our imagination
Smile in solitude
At remembrance of what was once temporary
Now permanent
In our own special way

The beauty of an impermanent world
Makes us grateful of what we've got
The beauty of an impermanent world
Gives us strength to persevere the pain
The beauty of an impermanent world
Gives us hope of better days
The beauty of an impermanent world
Our situations good or bad
Our joy and sadness
Our life and death
Gifts and blessings
We paid nothing to own
Lets share them
Lets value them
Lets learn from them
Lets leave as one

The beauty of an impermanent world
Let your time count

See beyond the norm

It is never
Just...
A crack on a wall
A crack on a ceramic vase, plate or pot.

It is never
Just...
A wrinkled face
A withered flower.

It is never
Just...
A dying person
A dying flower.

It is never
Just...
About permanence.

Wholeness
Beauty
Youth
Life

It is never permanent
But it is always certain
That we will all go through it
And we will all perceive it differently.

But have you ever taken a moment?
To see beyond the blemish?
Beyond what society has marked "imperfect"?
To see the bigger picture?
That is the art that lies within and beyond
Those cracks
Those wrinkles and withered petals
That last breath?

Well...
I have.

I see new beauty
Blinding beauty
Shining like a cluster of stars
With renewed glamor
With intense strength
With intense hope
With a big warm smile.

Cracks that reveal the image of a bird
Cracks that spell out love
Cracks that add new beauty

Wrinkles that spell out wisdom
Withered petals that portray fragility
Wanting to shelter the flower
That it stays bright a little longer
That it retains its sweet scent
Withered petals that show the importance of value for what you have
Before it is all lost

Death
Is not the end
Rather the beginning
Of a new age
Of those that are born today
Death
The last breath
Taken with a smile
With youth in the eyes
Paving a way
To start life again

Impermanence
At its perfection.